Thursday, August 19, 2010

Mind Splatter....

You know those days where so many things are going on in your head and you cant seem to sort them out and you just wind up over thinking everything? HMMM. Well unfortunately that is how my days have been the past few weeks...well i lied. Past few months. Without throwing all my dirty laundry out in cyberspace...i do want to vent. 

I have been through some...interesting things in my life. Because of those situations, i have become stronger and the person i am today. so therefore i dont regret anything. i have always said that but i mean it more and more the older i get. i realize the lessons have been taught and there are more lessons to be learned. it does seem that the mistakes that i make dont always add up until a few years later. when im in the middle of the current whirlwind, i kinda shut myself off and dont really want to deal with the real issue why i made the mistake in the first place. i want a quick fix and move on so i can just deal with it later. basically? thats me in a nutshell. im ashamed to say but its my biggest flaw and i realize it so im working on it. basically ive been through a lot of mint choc chip ice cream this past week because of this whole car accident-insurance drama ive been having. but the good news? out of all the drama in my life i have a center. a calm before the storm if you will. without being too corny.... it is jason. i know i know! gag. but in all seriousness, i can be flipping out, crying and being crazy and he just listens and smiles and calmly lets me freak out then once i realize the balance is off, i calm down and we talk things through. ive never really had that before. its amazing and that is my balance. i know that i am his balance  too. i know when to give space and when to be supportive just as he does for me. with these little things, i know we can always get through the tough stuff. the little thing that i love the most is that i can sleep peacefully at night, no matter what happened during the day. we have great families and friends, a roof over our head and a great dog and most of all...eachother. so as nauseating as that may sound to some of you...its the truth. that kinda stuff is love. getting through the bullshit and supporting and listening. 

with all that being gonna go. im snuggling up with the mousse-man and watching will and grace. jason is having man-night over with Steve and Brandon so i will see him later....something about football? preseason? i have no clue. when does hockey start again??? ;)


Saturday, August 14, 2010

Canada and Car Crashes

Whew. What a week. I have found it so hard to catch my breath this whole summer and this week didnt help. Im hoping that things start to slow down at least a little...i know, i know. Who am I kidding, right? The older you get, the faster time seems to go by.

Last week started off great! My family, Jason and I got back from the cruise on Monday and we all had SUCH a great time. Saint John was such a cute little town and spending more than a few hours with my family was so great. I have tons of pictures but here is a little preview...

Jason and I leaving port in NYC

Jason and I with the Statue of Liberty behind us!

Aunt Carla, my mom and I starting things off with Mimosas :)

Mabecca got serenaded again for her bday! Cant celebrate too much!

I loved the towel animals.

Once we got off the ship, there was a Moose to take photos with haha!

Us at bingo! (I won the first jackpot of the day!)

We ran into some character pirates in Saint John and we sat down and had a few beers with them. They were a riot!!!

"Come on over wench and take a photo...arggg!!"

Dad was right at home with these guys. He had to try on the clothes and all. I laughed so hard.

Dad and I once they opened their treasure chest.....


Saint John was so beautiful....this was when we were leaving.

It was such a great time. It was over too soon. This was Jason and mines last vacation for awhile and it was such a blast. 

SO that was the good part of the week. We got back on Monday and I had Tuesday off to unpack, do laundry and,well, be lazy with my dog because I missed the Mousse-Man!! Wednesday was back at work for me! It started off great and things weren't too backed up so it was a pretty decent morning. Since I live about 10 minutes away from work, I go home for lunch everyday. WELL I was on my way back to work from lunch and this guy slammed on his breaks two cars ahead of me, and the car behind him had to slam on his breaks and pull off to the side to avoid hitting the truck. Well when I saw him slam on his breaks, I had to slam on mine and I wasnt as lucky avoiding him. It was either go into oncoming traffic, or hit him. So i tried to avoid but i ended up slamming into the back right corner of his car. Both of us were ok but the guy that caused it all just went on his way...didnt even stop! I couldnt believe it. We both got our cars out of the road and i went to open my door to get out didnt open. Not a good sign. I climbed over the console to get out on the other side and took a look at the damage. Yep, definitely not good. My car just crumpled. The only good news was that the other guys car just had minor damage to his bumper...he could still drive it. Me? Not so lucky. 

If you can believe that it actually looks better in the picture with everything taken apart than it did when the accident happened...well it does. My poor car. So now Im dealing with all this. At least we both werent hurt so that was a good thing. 


So now here i am on Saturday, writing this blog and watching the Flinstones. Jason and Mousse are outside working on our jungle (we have SO many plants in our backyard...) and we are just gonna piddle around the house today. I should get motivated and clean....Ill go work on that :)